Shit that matters...

Ambitious girl, your drive drives me crazy
I’m tryna stay with you, lay with you
I’ll pay your tuition, and pray with you if you ain’t in to wishin
I’m tryna fuck the shit out your aspirations
See, the last one I dated, I hated
We wake up, I go to work, she leave out
Come back with some make up, high heels, and a purse, or
Worse I ask her, “Babygirl, what you aspire to be?”
She reply to me like, “why you perspiring me?” bitch…
Pardon me if I’m sweating you but,
I wanna see something else in you before I invest in you
Ambitious girl, what is sitting for (?)
I’d rather you tell me to hit you later,
Cuz you gotta finish a paper
Then to be in my face asking for a Rose’ cup
See these bitches can’t cut in yo business
I’m in love with your business
And your productivity is the reason I interest, ambitious girl
See, I like the person that you are,
But I’m in love with the person that you have potential to be
And all your dreams sharing with me
And your secrets baring with me
And the flaws, you ain’t even got to mention to me,
Ambitious girl, you just wanna win, and you’d rather chase your dreams,
Then to try to chase these men
That try to chase these skirts
That try to chase these shots with flavors that ain’t even as sweet as her
My ambitious girl, I won’t forget you,
I just reflect on how I ain’t met you, yet boo
You somewhere, getting your life in order
So for this time being, I hope this open scribe might support her
The Supporter, the worker, she worth it

Ambitious Girl- Wale

3/12/12 — 12:38am Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3UqxHsQYau Filed under: #ambitious #spoken word

She wanted something else, something different, something more. Passion and romance, perhaps, or maybe quiet conversations in candlelit rooms, or perhaps something as simple as not being second.

Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook (via simply-quotes)

Source: simply-quotes

Notes: 1158 2/13/12 — 11:04pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3UqxGOa8Ll

All I know is that you’re so nice
You’re the nicest thing I’ve seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn’t figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you’d hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you’d never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
‘Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you’d be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn’t eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you’re the nicest thing I’ve ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

The Nicest Thing
By: Kate Nash

2/13/12 — 1:23am Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3UqxGLY6oi

My, How I've Grown...

P:
How are u…
Me:
I’m good! Making a super food power smoothie 
P:
Nice... u ready for an all nighter again... lol
Me:
Haha ready if you are! I went to bed early last night and everything
P:
I thought you were gonna send me a picture... so I know what I’m missing
Me:
I figured you had enough from Saturday to last you thru the week. And that when you needed a refresher, you’d be back 
P:
I wish I had more that night... well pretty much a lot of nights ;)
Me:
I was proud of us.
P:
I was too... but I also regret it… because I know u feel awesome!
Me:
I’m more focused now than before as far as what I want. I feel like you want different things and it makes me hold back. But yes, I wasnted you too. Big time
P:
Ur probably right... but that’s where I’m at right now... and u know u want a relationship.
That’s why I back off... but believe me… I want you too
Me:
Timing. Ha. I wouldn’t have to worry about this if I didn’t see you that night at the green. I always wonder why I did. But sex isn’t enough to motivate me to. Unfortunately I actually like you and it makes me want more… so its better for em to just avoid it.
P:
Avoid me?
Me:
Not you, the situation. I feel like we are super compatible. You hve everything I’m looking for in a guy. But all you want is a booty call. So I’m not going to put myself in the position of feeling bad afterwards bc you don’t call of date me. I’d rather just consider it bad timing (again) and let it lie where it is.
P:
So you never wanna see me knowing the situation?
Me:
Not saying that. I love being around you, so that’s a harsh stmt. I’m just saying… it’s detrimental to my own mental wellness to put myself in a situation where I will be let down
P:
Understand. Oh I don’t just want booty… if I did I wouldn’t went after that night
Me:
Then I don’t get it. What do you want? You only call when you want a piece…
P:
When have I ever called to get a piece. Just want friends… I like making memories.... if it does happen when it happens if not, we’re having a good time anyways
Me:
My brain doesn’t operate like that. I have great friends who call me and want to see me… if I like someone I go for it. You’ve made it clear thru actions… yet say different things… that you don’t want the same things as I do. So why put myself out there with you? It fucking sucks for me. And I have amazing kids who don’t need a 2nd dad… not looking for one. They are taken care of. I’m looking for someone for me.
P:
Well I’m sorry, I can let you be…
Me:
That’s your choice… you know where I stand if you change your mind. Otherwise, I’m sure we’ll run into each other again some day
P:
I wish it was that easy. I respect you, so I will
Me:
What does that mean
P:
That means you don’t like being around me because it hurts your feelings... and I’m not ready for a relationship because I wanna enjoy my friends… last relationship I got into I lost my happiness… and I forgot who I was and I’m not going through that again
Me:
You chose the wrong person. A relationship is supposed to be a healthy balance of both friends and love. You should be able to do both… incorporate both into your life and each others. It’s not supposed to be you and her against your friends/ life. I have enough going on in my own life that I could never hold someone else’s hostage. I have my own friends, my own life, a career, a house to maintain. And I’m sorry you lost yourself in your last relationship. I did the same. He was abusive and I ignored it. I’ve learned from that. But you not wanting to pursue things with me because of your last relationship isn’t fair. To you or me. There was a reason we saw each other again. I believe that… but you’re not ready and I can’t fault you for that. Ultimately you need to be happy with yourself, and so do i.
P:
I know that… that’s why I need to get on track again, I wanna be the best person I can be in a relationship… and I’m not there yet…
Me:
I understand

2/13/12 — 1:22am Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3UqxGLXw4R

I Want…

I know what I want. I want to work with people; not in sales. I want to help people, not doctors. I want to feel like I’ve made a difference in people’s lives at the end of the day. I want to feel like my life is more meaningful than the number of calls I make in a day. I want love, unconditional. I want to be someone’s first priority. I want to matter. I want someone to dream of me; to look at their phone in anticipation, and then sigh in disappointment because I haven’t called/texted. I want it all. And I will get it. If not with Cory, or Phil, then with no one… until it’s time.

PRINT THIS POST WORDS: 2/13/12 — 1:15am Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3UqxGLX1Gb

That’s what Jamie didn’t understand: it was never just sex. Even the fastest, dirtiest, most impersonal screw was about more than sex. It was about connection. It was about looking at another human being and seeing your own loneliness and neediness reflected back. It was recognising that together you had the power to temporarily banish that sense of isolation. It was about experiencing what it was to be human at the basest, most instinctive level. How could that be described as just anything?

Notes: 13 7/9/11 — 9:12pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3Uqx6xHgIy Filed under: #sex #connection #loneliness #neediness #isolation

The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.

Unknown (via skeletales)

Source: skeletales

Notes: 186 6/21/11 — 9:04pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3Uqx6JokFR

I could fall in love with a cruel desert that kills without passion, a canyon full of scorpions, one thousand blinding arctic storms, a century sealed in a cave, a river of molten salt flowing down my throat… But never with you.

Henry Rollins

2/16/11 — 9:33am Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3Uqx36JF5E

started with romantic/ then got to frantic/ now things that’s normally small become gigantic/ now you sinkin’ like the titanic/ here come the panic/ bein’ with you like a habit without you i can’t stand it/ its tragic when you wonder how you lost that magic/ without understanding that you never had it…

Talib Kweli- Love Language

Notes: 1 2/13/11 — 7:41pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3Uqx33g3Cr

You. You’re stopping me. Nobody else challenges me, shares my past, makes me laugh like you. Only when you leave again can I return to the business of manufacturing a prefabricated happiness, one without excellence, passion, or you. One I will eventually convince myself is as good as it gets, and probably more than I deserve.

2/7/11 — 7:48pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3Uqx2z4RCt

All I know is that you’re so nice
You’re the nicest thing I’ve seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favorite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason
You are in the world

I wish my smile was your favorite kinda smile
I wish the way that I dressed
Was your favorite kind of style

I wish you couldn’t figure me out
But you’d always wanna know what I was about
I wish you’d hold my hand when I was upset
I wish you’d never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favorite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
‘Cos it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see

Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
Yeah, I wish that without me
You’d be spending the rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn’t eat
Yeah, I wish I was the last thing on your mind
Before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that
You’re the nicest thing I’ve ever seen
And I wish we could see if we could be something
Yeah, I wish we could see if we could be something

Kate Nash- The Nicest Thing

2/7/11 — 1:47pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/Z-3Uqx2ykaa3